Friday, April 11, 2008

This blog is a little embarassing to me

I don't feel it represents me very well; it is a rather one-dimensional view of my role as Mother. Also, I know that family members read it; some who wouldn't necessarily understand a more honest view of my life.

Why do I feel the need to show myself to the outside world? Perhaps to connect with others out there who might feel as I do + allow me feel a little less lonely. Because I do feel lonely. I don't feel comfortable in my suburban work-mostly-at-home world. I wish I could move to the city. I wish I had lived alone + experienced more before I touched down on planet Mother/Wife/Suburban-dweller.

Most of all (and - ta da! - to tie this in with the blog's theme) I hope that Leah spends some time really getting to know herself, and is less afraid of showing her self on the outside than I am.

But how to accomplish this without doing some growing of my own?

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