Unsettled

It's interesting to me that as we grow older, we are expected to settle down... into a more predictable rhythm in our lives... for a lifetime with one person... with kids + pets + work + responsibilities + lots of stuff.

I find that as I've aged + learned more, I feel less settled. Almost like I'm starting out again in middle school, but with a different set of skills. Better skills, I hope.

Last week I started going to a meditation group. There are many reasons why I felt the pull, but one of them was to feel more settled in myself - strangely, the less visible part of my life. What a relief it was to quiet my thoughts + just breathe.

I've also been walking early in the morning - alone in my neighborhood, watching the world (ok, part of NJ) come awake and the moon fade away. Such a great feeling, when paired with Leah's noises + work's challenges + crawling all over the city. Love it!